Wow.....it's been well over a year since my last, extremely personal, post. And A LOT has happened. If you follow me on Twitter, you would know that I gave birth to a beautiful but very cheeky baby girl.
She was born July 2016 and will be 1 next week. she is extremely happy and smiley all the time except when she throws a tantrum which i didn't even know babies could throw them before the terrible twos. she's walking. good lord i wish she was still a newborn, all the running around I've been doing since she started crawling is tiring me out. but i wouldn't change her for anything. I decided to call her Miya and yes it was after Natsuyaki Miyabi, but only because I had to look up the meaning of the the name as family would want to know why I picked the name. As much as I love Kanon, Miya was stuck in my mind and wouldn't leave. Plus i choose the kanji that means "extreme beauty", well the translation that I preferred meant that, didn't like the temple meaning. But it was actually my little sister who came up with the final name, Miya-Michelle. I wanted to give Miya the name Michelle as her middle name to pay respects to my aunt who died 12 yrs ago, so as everyone kept saying the names together, she said "why don't we just name her Miya-Michelle?" And it stuck. Although no one calls her but her full name, not even Calling her Miya, she got the nickname MiMi long before she was even born. I won't go into details about the birth cos that's horrible and a little traumatic for me, let's just say that I'll only consider having another child IF Miya asks me for a little brother/sister. And when she does, I'll send her to ask her auntie Annie about why that's a bad idea to have a little brother due to her first hand experience with an extremely demanding little brother who has tried to teach a 4 month old baby to play Super Mario. Really, he was trying to teach her to play video games at 4 months. I caught him showing her the game and talking about how to play it. Anyway, I'm trying to get back into my hobbies and trying to connect with people outside of my mama bubble, which is hard, especially since i have decided that Facebook is the root of all depressive thoughts and have, as of this post, not been on that evil site for 4 months (yay me!!) and yes i know that isn't helping with the whole escape mama bubble but i feel so free being away from there. So hopefully, with the extremely limited personal time i have, i want to try and blog at least once a week because i want to show my daughter the wonders of idols and how just watching them do what they love and achieving their dream can encourage us to try and achieve ours. I'll start with trying to breakdown the last 3 1/2 years of thoughts on additions, graduations and singles.
I haven't blogged for over a year now and that's because I've had some situations happen to me that stopped me from doing something that I enjoyed. Even though I don't know who you readers are, you have been reading what I write and letting me voice my opinions on things and for that I really apricate you all.
To all those on Twitter that I talk to occasional, thank you for following me and my rants and sorry for not tweeting very much.
I know this is a blog for idol talk, but I need to get this off my chest in order to help myself heal. Please do not comment on this as I don't really have the courage to read them.
Life isn't like a box of chocolates. It's like a rollacoster, it has ups, downs, turns, it goes fast and slows down. For some, the highs are constant and looking at them is like looking at a cloud that you can never reach. While for others, it's a bottomless pit of nothingness. It's lonely and painful. That's where I am right now. I'm in a bottomless pit and I can see this tiny pinprick of a light but I just can't seem to reach it.
I was first diagnosed with depression in 2006, about 4 months after my aunt died. I was studying at university to become a theatre technician. I was struggling with the course as I am a slow reader, writing is a chore and deadlines make me panic to the point that I'm so stressed out that I spend more time sleeping then doing anything else. When my aunt died, it was a huge blow to me. She was the aunt who was closest to me in age being 15 years older then me, and was the aunt who was always out with her friends and having a good time. She never told anyone that she was suffering until it was too late.
She didn't really kill herself, she just stopped caring about herself. She was hospitalised once before for not looking after herself after she had twins what died but after she had my cousin she seemed fine. It's tough not seeing her smile and laugh.
The doctor told me that it was just stress and that I need to talk about what's making me so stressed. So I dropped out of uni to concentrate on getting better, and I did, it took a few months but I got out of it and went to do another course to do what I wanted to to.
Leaving home was stressful but I enjoyed the freedom and independence I gained from not being at home. Yes I was broke but as long as I was happy, it was ok. I completed the course and gained a foundation degree. I wanted to study something else not connected to that course as I learned that I wasn't really suited to that stressful environment so I applied to do a fashion course to being up my designing and clothes making skills but I couldn't continue as I didn't have the funds to do that course and live away from home. So I reluctantly returned.
The depression flared it's ugly head again sometime between 2009 and 2011, I don't really remember what caused it to return but what I do know is that it was my family who noticed something wasn't right with me. So for them I went and sort help. The only thing that worked was taking anti depressants which no one wanted me to take, but it worked and all I cared about then was making sure that my family was happy and that I looked happy.
I managed to get myself a job, which I hated, and tried to manage doing what I wanted with having a job. I ended up giving up doing things that I loved doing because of my hatred for the job I was doing. I knew that the job was harming my already unstable mind but I kept up with it. Counting down the seconds before I could leave for the day. I developed joint pains in my wrists and ankles and started having sharp pains which lasted for 30 minutes each time because of the job but I didn't give it up.
September 2013, I had nearly £200 taken out of my account due to someone hacking my cousin’s Xbox and that put me into some financial trouble which I'm still kind of paying for even now as I write this. It took 4 months for the bank to sort it out. And in those months, more money left my account. I started getting stressed again and slowly started to seclude myself from everyone I loved.
I didn't want to go out, I didn't want to watch telly, I didn't want to do anything but sleep. Eating became a chore as well. The only reason why I ate was because I had to due to work but I lived on 1 meal a day for months. I just didn't care about myself and I just wanted everything to end. I felt alone. I felt that no matter what I did, I wasn't moving. Picture being In a race and your running but nothing is moving. You can see everything and everyone flying past you but your going nowhere. That's how I was feeling.
What made me want to end everything was having debt agencies harress me constantly, my cousin getting into trouble and making my grandmother sick and my manager telling me that my piroites are wrong that work should be my only pirority and that I should leave my grandmother to the rest of my family, I lived with my grandmother at that point so I got extremely angry and refused to do any work which my supervisor told was ok after he heard what that manager had said to me.
I went to go visit my friend in Nottingham and while there, I felt like there was nothing for me there. I didn't feel comfortable and when I went home, I found more letters from debt agencies. I tried to find a solicitor who could give me some advice on this problem but couldn't find the free law centre. I couldn't find anyone who could help me and I felt like the whole world was against me that I decided to take some painkillers to stop the pain I was feeling. I wanted all the pain I was locking inside me to end and I wanted all of my problems to go away and not trouble my family. I couldn't take it anymore. I just wanted it all to end.
What stopped me was my grandmother. She had lost her baby my aunt to depression and her eldest son and child, my uncle, to cancer. I didn't want her heart to break even more with me gone so I used her care line and got help.
The first person in my family to find out was my mother. I didn't realise I was hurting her so much. She went straight from work to the hospital when the people at the care line contacted her with what happened. Then my aunt arrived and for the first time I realised how much I was loved, that there was something really wrong with me to want to do something so final. It's still hard talking about it to anyone. Even trying to write it down is making me cry uncontrollably that it's hard to see. I'm still ashamed to admit that I tried to take my own life last year. If there are any gramma mistakes that I have made, I'm sorry, but I don't think I can read this back to correct any of it.
So, I moved back in with my mother, my gran sort of knows what happened but doesn't want to know and I started getting help. I need it. I went back on medication and started thearipy to find out why I'm feeling the way I feel and to find ways of changing it. It took me 3 months before I felt well enough to go back to work but I just couldn't act like nothing had Happened.
All that happened at the end of April 2014. Since then, over 8 month, I followed what my doctors said to me, I started making myself do things that once made me happy like sewing and baking. I started talking to my mum more and more about everything that was bothering my and started trying to make my life feel better then I was feeling it was. I eventually left my job due to feeling like I was never going to get better in a job that was making me sad.
Funny how when you start getting rid of all the bad things in your life, good things start to happen. So now I'm crying for good things now. Less then a month after I quit my job, I met my boyfriend. He's so sweet and kind, smart, caring and no matter how I'm feeling, he always makes me smile which is hard at the moment as I've just had my tooth taken out and it hurts to smile.
If I hadn't of left my job, I'd have never brought the ticket to go see Babymetal and I would have never moved over to let a disabled lady lean on the barrier which made me push him and I wouldn't have made it to today to feeling like there are something's in life to live for.
So I have no money, no job, I live with my mother in an estate I hate and all my friends live so far away from my that its very lonely, ok so most of my friends live far, I do have a few that live close but they are very busy. I'm slowly getting to a place that I can safely say that I'm truly happy. I know my family are still worried about me and I'm trying to find ways to get myself back. To get the girl who had a vision for her life and wanted to explore what this life has to offer back. To dig her up after the woman buried her a year ago.
I'm not writing this to get sympathy from anyone, I don't want it. I don't need it. Not because I feel like I deserve it because I truly feel that I don't, but because I need people to understand that depression is different for everyone and some people want the sympathy, some want support and some want both. I want support but I want the support of having people know that there was something up with me but that I haven't changed. I'm still the same kind, creative person I was before my condition, she's just trying to see how much light is really out there in the world. I just want people to know that life IS like a rollacoster, you just can't let the downs keep you down.
Thank you for reading. Please know that this was very hard for me to do but it's also helping me to overcome it.
I'm Kira and I suffer with dyslexia, depression and anxiety. This blog helps with my dyslexia and hopefully writing this post will help me with my depression.
She's ******* lazy in the Hair Arangement section for this episode. Rina was my least favourite due to how bored she looks but this just takes the piss now.
So last year while I was being a lazy git, Tsunku announced a new unit.
Yay new blood. Just what the doctor ordered.
Didn't really care at that point that who was going to be in the group but just excited that a new group was being formed.
Got even more excited to hear that Miyamoto Karin, Otsuka Aina and Takagi Sayuki were going to be in it.
Karin has got to be the most talked about KSS after Meada Yuuka and Sayubee was this bubbly ball of energy on stage. They were among my favourites in the KSS programme. Aina, I remember fromthe 9th gen auditions. I wasn't in the group who wanted her in (I wanted either Mogi or all of them in) but I was glad that she got her chance to debut. A chance to show what she had learned from her time with the KSS.
As for the other three, Miyazaki Yuka, was a bit strange to me. She has a good voice but I hadn't seen her dancing skills to fully judge her. Uemura Akari and Kanazawa Tomoko were complete mysteries to me. They were newbies, especially Kanatomo.
When I heard their name and the reason behind it, I immediately thought about what I read about Berryz Koubou and how Miyabi had given each girl her own fruit (Saki - Strawberry, Momoko - Peach, Chinami - Orange, Maasa - Watermelon, Miyabi - Cherry, Yurina - Pink Grapefruit, Risako - Chinese Pear). Made me think that they were going to replace them soon. Not a good feeling.
When their first indie single was announced and performed, I actually liked what I heard. It was mature and very different from what the rest of H!P was doing. It established Karin and Aina as the front girls with Sayubee and Kanatomo as the middle and Yuka and Akari as backups.
I was quite impressed with them until I heard Aina's vocals. Live, she was fine, but recorded, she hurt my ears. I couldn't take her vocals. While Kanatomo was like chocolate to my ears. Where the hell did Tsunku find this girl?
Second indie single and I felt that this group was strong. I was waiting for Tsunku to trun around and say that he was adding/subtracting members but it didn't happen. This song confirmed how strong in terms of talent this group is. Even though Yuka is the worst dancer in the group while Akari is the most nervous singer, it didn't take away from my enjoyment of their performances.
Ten Made Nobure! Not a fan of this song....for the group. But for the KSS's, its perfect. This didn't fit in with their image and to this day, they don't really perform it with out the KSS.
soon after the release of the KSS song, they get the news of their major debut.
Seriously?!? You made C-ute, Mano Erina and S/mileage wait 4 singles and you give these girls only 2 (not including Ten Made Nobure) singles? Although it didn't seem fair, they were ready.
Then Tsunku also announces a big FUCK YOU to Sayubee's leadership and gives it to her Kohai, Yuka, just cos Yuka is older, then another massive FUCK YOU to being sub-leader to her and gives it again to her kohai, Kanatomo. I felt bad for the girl as up until that point, she was acting as leader and everyone in the group was looking up to her for guidance. You could see her face drop for a second when that announcement was made.
Then Aina's parents pulled the plug on her career with H!P. Personally, I think she either wasn't doing good at school, her parents thought UFP was AKS or they wanted Aina to be more featured in the group then Karin. Although Tsunku has said that the group will carry on as a 5nin, I was, and still am, afraid that Tsunku will add more girls to this group and do a S/milage on us.
Now for their major debut. A triple A-side. First H!P group to do this. Shame the other two songs were just edits of their first two Indies but boy am I glad they did that. Didn't think I could listen to Aina's voice anymore. As sad as I am to see her go, my ears are happy about not having to hear her in single versions. (Sorry Aina fans, I like the girl just not her vocals)
These girls are going from strength to strength. Their sales a excellent for a rookie group. Over 40,000 for their debut!?! Ranking at #3 on the Oricon weekly chart for their debut!?! (I know Passport did the same and got a #1 on their major Debut so this is nothing but I'm not a Passport fan (can't seem to get into them))
I would say that my favourite member is Takagi Sayuki followed by Kanazawa Tomoko. Miyanoto Karin was never my favourite favourite KSS, but I do rate her quite high. Its just I've fallen in love with Kanatomo's vocals and can't seem to drag myself away from them.
Akari is my least favourite member just cos I like Yuka's vocals better. It was really hard to rank these girls as they all have something unique about them. I like all of them, which is really weird for me. The only other group like that is Dream5.
While I am blogging again, I'll be using bloggers mobile app for most of my posts. This is due to the computer I use being piss takingly slow no matter what I do to speed it up.
Please forgive me for the lack of pics/vids in my future posts.
Sorry for completely ignoring the blog. Been having a hard time trying to stay awake after working double shifts for months on end.
So I've decided to do this predictions post to get me back into the swing of things.
Morning Musume '14
They will perform on Kohaku!!
I was disappointed that they didn't get invited to perform but as the saying goes "when one door closes, another opens".
They appear more on TV.
And not just for promotion of singles/albums, but for just being them.
Sayumi doesn't announce her graduation.
Like hell she can. She wants to perform at Kohaku again so she has to stay until she's 27.
#kanon2014
If you follow me on twitter, you'll know that I started using this hash tag for Zukki. THIS IS HER YEAR TO SHINE!!!!! She's defending her weight on TV, her vocals ate beautiful and she (finally) got a line in a single that's in the section that will be performed. THIS IS HER YEAR!!!!!
BerryzKoubou
They actually get a budget.
Bigger budget means better PV.
They make an album that's not boring.
I was very disappointed in their last 2 albums. 6th Otakebi Album was the first album I got from them back when I first started getting into Hello! Project. So for me that is their greatest album.
Make it the BerryzKoubou show not the miyabi/Risako show featuring BerryzKoubou.
Don't get me wrong, I don't think there is anything wrong with having the two best singers in the group lead but when they sung 3/4 of the song but themselves for majority of the single releases, it does get borning......quickly.
They remind people that they do have great group chemistry.
This relates to their budget. Remember when they had good PVs and their group chemistry was showing more? Didn't they have a better budget then?
No-one graduates.
I've been reading that a lot of people think that someone (namely Captain) or all are going to graduate this year. Please don't.
C-ute
No-onegraduates.
They've got a good thing going at the moment. Having a member graduate now will hurt the group, especially with the tabloid media trying to get Airi fired for having a (non existent) relationship.
S/milage
Theycontinuetogethappy, smileysongs.
Yatteruchan was the best thing to happen to them this year. They need more songs like that.
TheystepuptheirgameandhaveachancetoperformatBudokanin 2015.
With J=J in the screen, the girls need to step up and show that they are not another Berryz Koubou.
KatsutaRinabecomesinteresting.
The girl needs to act like she wants to be there. Right now, I feel it would be best if she gtfo. She got picked over Kanoko Rie who just left H!PK after 5 years. A girl who always showed us just how much she wants to be an idol. A girl who never got the chance to debut, but this girl did and she looks like she doesn't want to be there.
NakanishiandTakeuchigetaPhoto book.
Kana is beautiful and Akari has this tomboy coolness going on. Wouldn't a pb with just them in it acting like lover be great? Especially if Sayumi or Fukuda puts in the ideas.
Juice=Juice
Theyperformonmusicstation.
They're good enough and hungry enough to do this.
TheyannouncethattheirgoingBudokanbeforeS/milage.
It happened to C-ute, it could happen to them.
Anewunitisannounced.
I like the idea of having the girls from the 12th gen audition forming their own unit. Also Sasaki Rikako, Hamaura Ayano, Kosuga Fuyuka and Tanabe Nanami need to debut. So that's two new units I would like to see announced.
On a side note, it would be nice to see another group achieve that #1 on or icon. I think that either C-ute or Juice=Juice might get that what with their sales and promotions.
Because it's coming up to Christmas, i would like to do a contest.
It
will only last 2 weeks but the winner we receive one copy of a regular version of
any Hello! Project/OOO48 single they want, Including any extra's that CD Japan happen
to still have.
Actually there are 2 contests that I'm doing, the other one is exactly the same but with Dream5.
So to enter, you have to answer 2 questions:
What is your
favorite song? - what you like about the song? what you feel when you
hear the song? your first impressions of the song?
Who is your
favorite member? - what you like about them? how did you come to like
them? what makes them stand out the most to you?
The only
conditions to this is that they must come from either Dream5, Hello!
Project or any of the 48 groups, no graduated members and you can not post them in the comment
section.
If you have a blog, please post it there and
send me the link, if not, email me: kirakira1610@gmail.com. If you email
me and you would like others to read it, i can post it to either blog
(this is a general idol blog while the Dream5 blog can only host Dream5 related posts)
The deadline is
15th December 2012 and I'll announce the winner before Christmas as it
will give me time to carefully read all the entries.
I'll start with the rehearsal video and work my way though what UFP (idiots decide to change their name after finally managing to sell over 100k since 2004)
When i first saw this, i was excited. The song is 100 times better than One Two Three. Everyone has a better chance to shine no matter how small and the hell that is the Tanaka and Soulless Demon Child show ft Morning Musume isn't as in your face as One Two Three was.
As for the dance, Did UFP hire a new choreographer? cos aside from Berryz and Mano, the level of the choreography in the recent H!P singles improved greatly since last year. The formations in this look good and even thogh Zukkini and Harubo are the weakest dancers in their generations, you can see how hard they have worked to catch up to the others. I personally think putting Harubo in DIY was the best move UFP could have done. Mixing her with H!P members that are around the same age as her has helped her to learn more then she would have in MM (there's only so much she can learn from girls younger than her when Sayu and Tanaka aren't there. Yes Ayummy and SDC can show her how to DANCE sexy, but Nakki, Maimi, Miya and Chii have been active longer and know how to BE sexy.)
As a Suzuki Kanon fan, this dance is great as she actually gets to be in the front. The whole of One Two Three, she was in the back and could hardly be seen.
So the next video released was the Dummy version or the teachers-performed-the-original-routine version.
Slight differences like they moved some members around and added new movements but it's good to see this. Personally it should have come before the group one but this is rare and i hope that they do this again for other singles.
The outfits were revealed next.
U.G.L.Y!!!! UFP are you actually trying to make the girls look this bad on purpose so that people will feel sorry for them and buy their single so that they don't have to wear these things from hell again?
I like Eripon's the best as it doesn't have that horrible black shirt thingy attached to it. My poor Zukki has the worst one. not only does she have the longerst skirt but where as the others have the body colour going past their waists, her's stops at her waist and the overall design makes her look fat. Tanaka's is ....... get rid of those stupid ears!!! You and Momoworld need a style intervention asap. And as for those things covering their shoes.......
The Temporary Version. I like the setting. I like the lightbeam prison. The effects are over the top and make it look tacky. Ayummy is missing in the dance shot but she was injured at the time so it's understandable but overall, it's better than One Two Three already.
The fire effect would have benn even cooler if ALL members got to do it. Not just SDC and Sayu.
The dance shot with Ayummy in it. I like this shot. The black makes the girls (and those costumes) stand out more.
The dance also has a few changes to it like this
It used to be juyst a straight all standing line then they moved on, now they change levels. I likey.
I'm not a big fan of this version. The effects hurt my eys too much especially the part wheneach member gets their solo line. the changes there are too much.
Positives are that the opening is more epic and Ayummy is in the dance shot.
So they had a performance of the song on Happy Music. Why is it only Tanaka and SDC singing live and the others are lipsycning? we all know they can sing it live so why are UFP making them lipsycn? And why is Zukki the only one not wearing heels? Did she hurt herself in practice and couldn't where them?
So after that performance came the final MV
THEY GOT RID OF THE GROUP SHOT WITH THE ORIGINAL SET!!!! AND ADDED SOME HORRIBLE FLASHING LIGHT EFFECT WHICH HAS ME SEEING SPOTS!
UFP!! You had the perfect change to listen to what the fans were saying about what they did and didnot like in the other versions of the pv and you diddn't listen to them.
We said we hated the effect - You added more
We said we liked the group shot - You got rid of it completely
Seems like what ever we said we liked, you got rid of and what ever we said we hateded, you gave us more of it. So if we said we hated Zukki, would you give her more lines? more like you'd actually listen to us and get rid of her (Which i don't want by the way, DAIZUKKI)
Overall, i like the song way better than One Two Three but UFP ruined the PV. I can't watch it, the effects make it hard for me to watch it.
Sorry for the lack of updates, been trying to work out a new schedule what with work and stuff. So i'll make this quick.
The 6 perverted people who voted for Kutie Kudu to get a PB got their sick wish. She's getting one. It'll be released on 25th October and a solo DVD will be released on the 7th November.
I thought that it might have been Chinami who'll get the announcement what with her new DVD coming out but this little Kutie beat her to it.
Out of all the members that are getting promotion in MM, i'm glad that Kudu is getting this oppotunity and hopefully this means that she's also going to be getting some solo lines in future MM songs cos lord knows we NEED a change.
So Congrated Kudu, I still won't be buying it because i don't want to end up in prison and on the sex offenders register for owning it.
As for the poll.
Well Fukuhime won it with 9 votes followed by Miya and Ishida with 8. Cinderella and Fang gang member #2 scored the highest for the S/mileage crew with 5 votes tho Meimei getting 5 votes shows that there are some loicons out there. As for the only 2 members of C-ute that qualified for the poll, Maimai scored 2 votes while Chisa only got 1.
I must say that i'm not surprised that Kana and Rina didn't get any votes but i was sure that Take-chan and Chinami would have gotten at least 1 vote, Anyway here's the break down:
Fukumura M - 9
Natsuyaki M - 8
Ishida A - 8
Shimizu S - 7
Iikubo H - 7
Kudo H - 6
Fukuda K - 5
Tamura M - 5
Ikuta E - 4
Sayashi R - 4
Sudo M - 3
Kumai Y - 3
Suguya R - 3
Hagiwara M - 2
Sato M - 2
Okai C - 1
Suzuki K - 1
Tokunaga C - 0
Nakanishi K - 0
Takeughi A - 0
Katsuta R - 0
I should have ended this sooner but i completely forgot that i added
SDC to this poll. It was only when i was writing this to Congratulate
Kudo that i saw her name. But i kinda don't about her so......
Yeah as the title says, I've been neglecting some news lately, my bad, so her is another excuse the reason why.
I'VE GOT A JOB!!!!!
Yes, i have finally got a job that will get me off the Job Centre's books. I'm sooooo happy about it but it also means that i won't be updating much as well (like i do that anyway). These last couple of weeks, i've been trying to sort out my life so that i can go to work (and loose my individual fashion sense allong the way) and have neglected to write about things that i really wanted to say.
I'll get the unplesantness out of the way.
AKB48 news. Yes my favourite group. New Team. Team "Surprise". Members:
Maeda Atsuko
Takahashi Minami
Takajo Aki
Shinoda Mariko
Kojima Haruna
Oshima Yuko
Itano Tomomi
Yokoyama Yui
Miyazawa Sae
Minegishi Minami
Watanabe Mayu
Kashiwagi Yuki
Kitahara Rie
Shimazaki Haruka
Matsui Rena
Sashihara Rino
WOW What a Surprise. It would have been more of a surprise is it was girls who management don't really push but fans love like Akimoto Sayaka and Sato Amina who are loved by fans but management seem to want to not push them (fucking pricks) but i guess it's just another way for Aki-P to make money out of Meada.
Speaking of Meada, remember when Eri was graduating from MM and H!P and how many PB's and whatnots they released to make as much money as possible out of her before she left? Well i just feel that Aki-P missed a trick here. I'm not talking about her solo career, but just the general air about her graduation feels like he doesn't care (pretty much like how i feel about her anyways). I just think that Aki-P should be trying to push her face into ours more. She's not in the Senbatsu single so why not make her release another single that's not a ballad and release another PB and get her doing more things to make money for himself before she leaves. Lord knows he can do it.
So with one Surprise to another. Senbatsu (yeah i found out that i got this job around than. Yea for me)
The only thing that surprised me was Umeda Ayaka making it. And i'm really happy for her for making it there after everything she's been through. She's worked hard and deserves it. It's just a shame the song sucks so bad that even my arse-licking ex and his constant talking about work sounds better than that crap.
I've always thought this but i think Aki-p doesn't have an original bone left in his body. The song sounds like Nogizaka46's piece of shit Guruguru Curtain but a slightly better version of it. Come on even the costumes look like better versions.
Nogizaka's Shit
AKB's Song
Same way like Give Me Five reminds me of Heavy Rotation. Except i've finally accepted Heavy Rotation into my cold heart and am bathing in it glory (still not enought to own a CD copy due to a nosey 13yr old).
Sadly, i'm not finished with this group.
Shimazaki Haruka
Oh, My Bad. Wrong girl
For some reason she reminds me of Meada. But a more i actually want to get to know her version. I'm still not convinced she's a good actress but put me in a burning room with her and Meada and tell me that i have enough time to save only one of these girls and i'd save Akimoto Sayaka's Calenders Shimazaki.
Speaking of Shimazaki. GO WATCH SHIRITSU BAKALEYA KOUKOU NOW.
Watch it for the hot Johnny's Jr's thats in it not for the boring AKB girls. I really wanted to hit every single girl in that drama (minus that Shinoda wannabe). They pissed me off. the Johnny's boys were more intertaining and the whole drama was based around them anyways. The girls were just an after thought to me while watching this show.
I especally loved Sakuragi Tatsuya (Morimoto Shintaro - Left), Terakawa Maya (Kyomoto Taiga - Middle) and Tachinami Shouhei (Takaki Yuya [Hey! Say! Jump!] - Right). Tatsuya is the tough but very caring leader of the school, Maya is the pretty boy who hates being told he looks like a girl and Shouhei, the oldest student in the school having not been able to graduate his 2nd year of hig school who also does everything in his power to keep out of fights (even though he starts some of them). if i could be bothered to learn more about Johnny's, i would so be a fan of them and fangirl over them all the time.
Ok, so i was basicly fangirling over Bakaleya, but Shimazaki's next drama is one to stay clear of. Majisuka Gakuen 3.
1 was pure crap and 2 was even crapper but watched them anyway cos i just loved thinking how these girls secertly wished they could beat the shit out of their rivals.
Admittedly the story line for 3 is WAY better that 1 which was way better than 2 even though both had the say story line (who can beat the crap out of Meada and win sounds the same as senbatsu, who can take Meada's center position away from her). Shame it's still a pile of shit.
Speaking of piles of shit, Shukan Bunshun. So they get a number of OOO48 no name girls supended/fired and decide to start on Aki-P's golden girls and what happens? he buys their silents. Aki-P, what are you gonig to do about the internet? You can't buy EVERYONE in the world off to keep your golden 20 cash cows safe.
Sashihara Rino, Girl no matter no much you try to deny the rumors, the fact that you answered the phone makes anything you say sound like your covering it up. I don't really care about your love life or your career (mainly cos i think no matter how hard they try to pass you off as a singer, to quote a film i recently watch [Take the Lead], you can make a dollar out of 15 cents) but to use your misjudgement and make you center of HKT48 is just wrong. It's not even a punishment for you, it more of a punishment for the girls of HKT. It's also saying that if Managment love you, you can do no wrong no matter who bad it is. Look at what happened with Sayaka and her non-scandal, she hasn't been properly pushed since that's happened, no matter how hard the fans vote for her to be in senbatsu, they'll never push her. It's obvious that the girls tht get the most screen time, promotion and love from management get to break all the rules and not get punished but everyone else does.
Now, i'll go from one Soloist to another. Kashiwagi Yuki is going to become a soloist. Great, just what we need from the 48 family, another member od Senbatsu getting even more promotion. I really can't be arsed anymore. I'll just stick to the main group and DiVA. i can't take anymore from them.
The one shining grace from all the 48 madness, is Masuda Yuka. I think i'll start to love this girl. She's dropped out of both the Tokyo Dome concert and the Janken tornement to concentrate on her musical. Well done for wanting to spend you time wisely girl. I think that if you spread yourself too thinly, you'll make everything you do suffer, so to do what your doing is very admirable.
Another thing that deservers some respect is UFA. Yes i know, UFA and respect in the same sentance as Deserves. Something you don't hear everyday.
Well they actually listened to the fans and promoted the hell out of Momusu's 50th single selling over 100,000 in a week. Well done UFA, your finally doing what you should have done years ago. It's just a shame that both songs were the Tanaka and SDC show. You have girls that need to gain more confidence in singing and the only way to give them that confidence is to give them lines and you don't give them lines.
I was looking around for the lyrics to The Matenrou Show and i found a translation of Tsunku's blog post about the single. I won't copy it to here as it will just make this post longer than it is but you can read it here. I'm just going to highlight a certain part. This is about One.Two.Three -
The reason I wrote this song in this style is that I wanted to create a song
that would represent each of these 10 members faces (voices),
and there aren’t many sentences left to just one person, the lines are distributed so that
all ten members have a place to stand out.
When do all ten members have a part to stand out on? and don't tell me it's their one syllable. All i hear are Tanaka and SDC singling all the solos with Sayu singing the odd word here and there while the other 7 members sing one syllable by themselves. Come on Tsunku, be honest with us and just say that you couldn't be arsed to give the other 7 members decent solo lines. As fot the Matenrou Show -
It’s the ultimate in funky music.
It’s strongly reminicent of a dance classic, but this speed, this melody,
this rhythm, this funk style*, the timbre, the mixdown…
They’re all put together in the latest style, and also the “Tsunku♂ style.”
This is just my opinion, but I don’t think many composers write songs like this,
and I made it thinking that it was kind of my specialty.
At any rate, I love this kind of dance music.
Yes Tsunku, This is your style. it has every retro styled song you have every written for anyone in ever in this song. and but the way, Tokyo Girls Style are doing the retro music right now, they might not be very popular but that is their style and it sounds more original that this song. (Sorry bitch mode in full affect right now)
With this kind of funky song experience means everything, so for the members lacking dance experience,
this is a pretty big hurdle, but I’d like them to overcome it.
The dance for this song is easier thatn the one for 123. It's just a shame that onlr Tanaka and SDC gets solos in this song. This would have been perfect if the other girls got solos or even duets in this song. I mean, Kudu, Fukuhime and Zukki have strong vocals and would sound great on this song. When i first heard this song, i thought that Fukuhime was singing lead but no, it was just SDC, but to her credit she did sound alright in some parts.
In more SDC news, she's getting another PB. FOR CRYING OUT LOUD, GIVE FUKUHIME A GOD DANM PHOTOBOOK ALREADY!!!! or even Eripon, Ayumi or Harunan, but not SDC. Anyone but SDC.
One thing i ame glad about with H!P id that they are creating new sub units. I won't call them Units as they don't have new members ie Eggs but current members.
So the first group is called Peaberry and consists of DAWA and SDC. Great, the can't sing foreigner hater and the autotuned Demon child in a group together.
And DIY♡, Do It Youtself/Dance In Your Heart. Maimi, Chii, Miya, Nakky and Harunan. When i first heard about this group and what their name meant, i too thought "Why not Ayumi and Captain?" but than i looked closer, Chii has the longerst legs in Berrys, Maimi has the longers legs in C-ute, Miya had a goregous pair of pins and so does Nakky while Harunan had the longest legs in Momusu right now. Legs. Legs. This group is about Legs.
I'm more interested in DIY♡ then in Peaberry for obvious reason but it's still good that UFA has finally decided to take that poll that was prevously positioned up it's arse and is using it to actually wave the flag of war that they left in some box at the back of the cupboard in front of all these new idols. I'm looking forward to what they have next.
One thing i am not looking forward to is this
Momochi! Yurushite Nyan♡Taisou.
GROW THE FUCK UP TSUGUNAGA MOMOKO! YOUR 20 YEARS FUCKING OLD! ACT IT FOR FUCK SAKES!
I think i'm done being a bitch for now. I'll leave the other 5 things that's on my list for another time.
If there are any Kikkawa You fans out there, you must watch this show.
She only has a small part, she plays the football (it's FOOTBALL not SOCCER) Team manager (is that right?). Anyway, i like this show.
Is a sweet unrequited love story set in high school (really need to branch out from this genre) starring many Johnny's Talents (please don't ask me to name them cos the only JE members i know by face and can put a name to them are 3 members of Arashi [Jun - Hana Yori Dango, Sho - Some drama where he played a bulter with Kitagawa Keiko and their Leader Ohno - no idea why i know him] and that fool who knocked up some girl i can't be bothered to look up, married her and now his career is going down the toliet. And i only know that their from JE cos the credits have (A.B.C.Z/Hey! Say! Jump!/ジャニーズJr) under their names.)
It's ok, Wasn't expecting too much to be honest but what disappointed me the most was how little screen time Zukki and Reina (i know) got.
Reina sings lead on this and she got royally shafted. While SDC (Soulless Demon Child) got half the MV, Reina had to share her screen time with the other members. When we should be seeing Reina during her lines, half the time we see other members, even SDC.
As for Zukki, i know Iikubo and Eripon also get as much screen time as her but she's at the back during the dance shot and her solo shots are less than a second each, in total she gets roughly about 2 seconds of solo screen time. We don't even get to see her smile.
ON a plus, Fukuhime is amazing in this. SDC pay attention to your senpai, THAT is how to look sexy. and Maa-chan really does look amazing in this. Her solo's have me wanting more.
But i really feel for Reina, Just when she finally gets to hog a camera she is forced to give it up to SDC.
Reina, i might not be you biggest fan but you really don't deserve this. You sing better, have a better personality and can act better and you get treated like this after 10 years of waiting in Ai's shadow.
So TPF have subbed Ousama Game and i have just finished watching it.
It's good but.....
Amazuppai Haru ni Sakura Saku is the WORST ending theme EVER!!!!
I won't spoil the film for you but when it ends, this happy pile of shit plays and your left thinking "what idiot decided it would be good to end a horror movie with a happy idolly song?"
When Gomennasai ended, we got this dark rock song playing and it fit the mood perfectly. So how could they end this excellent film with the crap?
Ousama Game is excellent. Yurina and Airi are brilliant, the storyline is excellent, the acting is top notch and i love everything about this film. It's just the ending song.
WHY???
C-ute's B-side would have made a better ending than Amazuppa-pile of shit.
Originally, i liked the song, not enough to stick it on my iPod but i liked it.
Now, After watching the film, Tsunku, how could you do that to this film. It's just wrong on so many levels. Why do you want to try to kill everyone? Isn't the ending enough? do you have to put a happy song on when we're trying to close our mouths?
I would really like to know the reason why 5 of you think Kudu should get a PB? SHE'S 12 YEARS OLD YOU SICKO'S!!!! REMEMBER GETTING HER PB WOULD BE CONSIDED CHILD PORN! (thats also true for any girl under 16 [UK age of consent])
On another note, Ishida's been given an E-Hello.
Only Iikubo left. Guess they'll leave the best till last.
So their profile pics were updated for their 5th single. This might be the only thing i like about this single. The Matenrou Show wasn't very good for me. Too many reminders of previous H!P songs all thrown into this, plus, it's another Reina/Soulless Demon Child duet with a few others getting 1 line. Very disappointed Tsunku/UFA, very disappointed in you. But this post isn't about that, Its about these gorgeous costumes.
Lets start off with our new Leader, Sayu
Gorgeous isn't she? The hair, the make-up, everything is perfection. Guess some might want her boobs to be a little bigger but who's complaining.
Tanaka's Next
Her hair and make-up are the same as always. for some reason, i like her in this outfit but that might just be because i love any shade of Blue.
Finally it's Fukuhime
.................................................. WHAT THE **** HAPPENED? Only yesterday she was this
I'm completely speechless. She's growing up so fast. She really is the new Sexy Musume, The Sexy Princess Musume.
Sayu has definately been at work here. Sayu can leave Momusu knowing that the PonPon's have taken the reins and will repersent Sexinees in the group from when she decides to graduate.
Just a reminder of what this girl looked like when she entered the group
What a difference.
Up Next is that Soulless Demon Child
Looks good but NEXT
ZUKKI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHAT THE **** DID THEY DO TO YOUR HAIR?????? Why? It looks like one of the hair styles that the muchkins have.
Iikibo Time (whis we could have had that on HPT)
Hair =
Give her a few more months and she'll be apart of Sayu's SexyKawaii Army. And that Brown Chocolate is refreshing and makes her stand out among the rainbow.
Blue Ayumi now
I'm not too sure about her hair but she looks great.
Sato Sato Sato
Couldn't they have found your colour for your shoes? They're the same as Zukki's! But your still cute as a button. Please don't change.
And last but by on means least Kutie Kudo
AND YOUR 12 YEARS OLD??????? NO F*ING WAY!!!!! Your showing up your sempais Hun. It's the hair
Some serious change, i just hope UFA aren't trying to make her grow up fast.
And as a treat, Kudo and Fukuhime from their egg days
